HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?

How can I be so dumb? If I were any more dumber, I would need a brain transplant! ARGHH... How can I forget to label the medicine?????????? The lecturer had to tell me not to look so worried next time.

I don't know whether to laugh at my stupidity or cry...

 

Anyway.. on a happier note, a lecturer praised me yesterday.. HAHAHA...

Rant

It's past time for a ranting post..

I don't know how some people can be so self-centred all the time. How is it that some people can feel that others are making her life miserable when she is the one making it hard for other people to be associated with her? This is just amazing to me.

ARGHHHH... I can't stand it!!

Boo for dispensing

Why is so hard to do dispensing??!! Why do we even need to do dispensing.. All those legal stuff.. arghh... why can't doctors be more knowledgeable on legal stuff so we don't need to check so many things??

I have no idea how I'm going to pass my dispensing.. sob.. I totally lost all my confidence in doing anything right during dispensing classes. How to gain it back? This is how ZEROES can cut away at someone's self-esteem and break a person...

100!

My 100th post! Can't believe that I have actually posted up 99 posts before this, some of which might just be very short one-liners. Maintaining a blog is not an easy thing, as most times I have no idea what i want to write about and some stuff aren't a good topic to write about.

I started this blog off to let my family know what's going on in my life and post photos up for them to view. I slowly gained readers other than my family members and this blog has become a place for me to write out how I'm feeling and on anything that I want to get off my mind.

This place is a place I turn to when I'm feeling down and lonely, when I'm happy, when I have something to say. Life isn't going the way I imagined it would have gone, and I'm going through my life by trying to look forward to the day I go home. Somehow everyday here seems like either a dream or a nightmare, and eventually I will wake up and find myself back at home.

I find myself withdrawing from all that is going around me. I am just unsure on how to actually be a person. I think I'm just a loner by nature, making friends has never come easy for me, as my evaluation of another person is flawed. I seem to be always making the same mistakes when looking at someone's character. It's just easier to be superficial aquaintances, than form meaningful friendships and find that your judgement is wrong, time after time.

ANYWAY.... on to happier stuff... 100 post 100 post 100 post! I started this post on a happy note and do not wish to end it in this way. So, Happy Valentine's Day to all.. and Congratulations to me for reaching the 100 post mark. Maybe in my next post I will write about what I actually wanted to write about today.

Just have to get it off my chest

First of all... Happy Birthday Sarah! I suppose you're starting A Levels soon. Good luck!

You can stop reading now if you don't want to read about my problems. :D

Next.. about me now.. Just feeling kind of depressed today. I think I need to spend one day out of these 4 walls and study in a new environment. I can't study properly and everything seems to be overwhelming. Friends who see me think i'm overly relaxed but truth is, i just don't know how to study anymore. I don't know how to store all these information away!!

I need to get out of here. Better i go and study in the library tomoro.. more human contact there. either that or i can always sit outside at the park and study.. haha... probably freeze, what with the cold snap we are experiencing now. I sure hope that we can at least see some proper snow tomoro.

Feeling better now that i jot down these silly thoughts, but sure hope it'll help me study better tomoro. It's terrifying when you think you've got everything stored away in your brain and when you try to do past year papers, you find that you don't know anything after all. Wondering if i could fill in an extenuating circumstances form.. i could say that the weather and the place is too depressing a condition to study in.

Anyway, the important part about this post is wishing Sarah a happy 18th birthday! you're old you're old!! hehe..

I found something that cheered me up ---> click here

Christmas season

As most people would know, this is my first christmas away from my family. I thought that I would have a hard time being away but it's not so bad. It really helps when you have great friends around you, enthusiastic about celebrating christmas for the first time. It helps when we get together to make gingerbread men (even though it too so much energy to mix the dough properly). It helps when we plan a christmas dinner together and all of us come together spreading christmas joy.

Even though it is cold and miserable here, even though i am far away from much loved family, even though I wish to be at home surrounded by family, I'm glad that i'm surrounded by good friends here, relieving some of the loneliness i feel sometimes.

So, thanks Pui San and Yan Leng for the fun time we had making gingerbread men!

It's only a few days more to christmas! Merry Christmas all!

btw.. tomorrow's the shortest day of the year! and also the winter solstice. can't wait to eat glutinous rice balls!

Nottingham and Gingerbread men

Here's a picture of the lake on a foggy day!

Us taking pictures in Nottingham Castle grounds.. there's nothing much there except for the museum. didn't go on the cave tour but will go the next time!

Us having buffet lunch at Flaming Dragon!

Taking pictures with the night view of christmas lights in Nottingham city.

ok.. doing all sorts of famous poses that people usually do... and i feel like an idiot doing this..



Nativity scene! but it's not as good as the one we always have in St Peter's Church.

Faith!! look.. your shop! Y didn't you tell us you have a shop in Nottingham?


Gingerbread man making session! It's all handmade! No machines for us, no sirree... And we mixed the whole dough for over 3 hours!

Cutting out shapes!

Puisan says that that is me... here is where she dares to gimme a straight short hair cut!

Representation of us! From left to right: Me, Yan Leng and Puisan.. haha

Puisan's snow man

More photos! (there's music so if you don't want to listen to it just off it.. just trying to set a christmas mood) hehe..

also photos on facebook here

Updates on my Life

Ok.. i'm bored. thus writing this post.

So.. updates.. This week is week 12. No more serious studies but mostly reviews except for today's lab, which wasn't as scary as other people made out. Which is another reason not to listen to people. People tend to exaggerate and make mountains out of mounds.

I have no idea what to update on my life. My brain is turning into mush. and it's oozing out of my ears (sumudu says i can collect it in a cup). drip... drip... drip... drip...

ok.. i keep complaining... i'm too busy.. i'm bored.. Think i prefer to be busy than with all this time on my hands, even though i need to study.

This entry is just crap..

Stressed??!!!

Why is it that we don't have more time to complete all the work that we've been given? Think i'm going to go nuts one day and start screaming and pulling out my hair..

On a happier note.. or not.. I got my offer letter for my summer placement next year.. in CORNWALL!! Whatever possessed me to apply there of all places! Now what am i supposed to do if Dhiv doesn't get Cornwall or some other place in Cornwall and we can't be together? I really don't want to go alone... Oh dear.... and i only have 10 days to consider....

Ok.. back to work...

Depressed?

I wonder how people can live here in UK? The weather is just so depressing. I don't think i can stay here for long term. I don't think i even want to do my pre-registration year here. I might, in the end, sell myself antidepressants.

Now that my friend's going to move away.. who am i going to find to talk to? (Rely on you now la Pui San!) I need to get my act together and start doing my work seriously and not think about these things... It's making me even more depressed than before.