Pride comes before a fall

I forgot that writing about it would make me feel better rather than mopping around waiting for something to drop onto my lap.

I didn’t get the Band 6 job. Just when you thought that you had it in the bag, something happens to snatch it away. It doesn’t matter how many times they IMPLY that they want you to stay. It doesn’t matter that you perform brilliantly in the time that you are working there.

All it boils down to is how good you can crap during an interview.

Well, if i were an unknown and competing with anther unknown, I would accept that I did not give a good interview because let’s face it, I never give good interviews. I’m not a good speaker, I’m not one to blow my own trumpet, I’m not one to talk about what I learnt. But that’s exactly who they are looking for. Someone who can talk the talk (but would she walk the walk?). Someone who can make up millions of different stories and make it sound impressive. I can’t do that. I get things done.. as well as I can, but what I can’t do is tell the whole world about it.

You guys knew how I am like in interviews.. You interviewed me for the pre-reg post. I told you that I am no good at interviews. But do you take my performance into consideration? No. Absolutely not. Because “employment laws require you to treat every applicant fairly.” How am I treated fairly then?

Tell me then… How do I put this behind me and go to work as if nothing has happened? How do I still go when I feel like it’s not worth my time. I have always enjoyed going in to work but now.. it’s just dragging. Smile they say… well.. you try it when you feel like it’s not worth it.

Guess it is time to move on and find another place. Somewhere that will appreciate my skills. Lesson to everyone: Talk is not cheap. Performance doesn’t matter that much. And never believe people when they say they will retain you.