I always think that I shall not be the first to start messaging.. but always end up being the first.. why?

Guess I've not blogged for a very long time. Just need to spill what I'm feeling these days.

Can't really think of who I can actually talk this through with. We've not been really talking to each other for months. Our gtalk messages consists of morning, are you still stressed?, lunch time, what are you doing?, home, and then mostly just no messages. Once in a while I throw a tantrum and I get a couple more messages then they just die down after a few days. I know he is busy and stressed... but how can someone not have a few minutes in 24 hours to spare?

I don't know what's going on. I don't know what to do. I guess I just have to stop hoping that I get a message each day. Some girls wish for flowers, jewellery or others... I just wish for a nice message each day... or an email..

Whatever.. I just have to stop being this way. Out of mind, out of sight?